Some days are like that
Hello everyone, I hope you’re all doing very well. Life still gets overwhelming.
A few days ago, I was having a conversation with my recruiter; as in, the lady who called me and liked me and passed me through the first round of interviews for my job. As we spoke over hot chocolate, she asked me about how I’m adapting to my new city and job and life. I’m adapting well, I said, but it’s still just hitting me that when I packed my bags and waved goodbye to New York, I was heading into a city that I had never even visited. I was essentially heading out into the unknown.
All I had, as I made that big move, were my faith in God and my trust in His promises. And boy has He been good!
However, some days, like today, I still get overwhelmed. I’m here at work, trying to work well. I’m at that phase where I kind of know enough to walk around my office and my city without the fear of getting lost. But on the other hand, I’m still growing, I’m still learning, I’m still getting used to this new life. There’s a lot I don’t know. Still.
(An aside-- here’s a song my father sang for me over the phone sometime ago. I quite enjoy old music, so I’m sharing it here so that my daddy will smile when he sees that I’ve been actively listening to the music of his youth haha)
Today started off as an amazing day. Last night, I slept earlier than I have in a long long time, so I woke up more refreshed than usual. But sometime after lunch, this veil of fear came over me. I’m not suffering from imposter syndrome, but I’m wondering how I will make it. Will I hit my targets, will I perform well at my job?
Honestly, I know in my heart that the answer to those questions is yes, but I still wonder how I will climb the mountain. How will the journey be? How will my performance at this job go?
A friend of mine just reminded me that I serve a God of overflow. He said that just at God has given me above and beyond what I imagine, He will bring my performance to above and beyond what I imagine. And everyone will marvel, and I will point them to my Jehovah over-do. The one who strengthens me.
I have been meditating on Psalm 18, and these are a few verses that have been immensely comforting to me.
“He maketh my feet like hinds' feet, and setteth me upon my high places.
34 He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms.
35 Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great.
36 Thou hast enlarged my steps under me, that my feet did not slip.
37 I have pursued mine enemies, and overtaken them: neither did I turn again till they were consumed.”
I hope this little cute except of Psalm 18 brings you all the joy you need for this present season of your life. Remember that God has strengthened your feet like hinds’ feet, He has set you up on high places, and taught your hands to war. By your hands, a bow of steel is broken. What strength, what immense strength!
I wish you God’s good blessings today and always!
Featured image from here.