What if I lose faith in God?

This is a devotional I got from My Utmost a few days ago. It's so interesting how it perfectly aligns with all we've been discussing on the blog about the Holy Spirit here and here. As always, my thoughts in italics. Enjoy!

Are You Fresh For Everything?

Sometimes we are fresh for a prayer meeting but not fresh for cleaning boots!

The true test of a christian is not always how much of a powerful experience you have in your intimate time with God, but how much you can experience God in the everyday things, and how much you can enable people around you to experience Him in their everyday lives.

Being born again of the Spirit is an unmistakable work of God, as mysterious as the wind, as surprising as God Himself. We do not know where it begins, it is hidden away in the depths of our personal life.

This portion reminded me of John 3:8, which says that “The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit." I don’t completely understand this verse. Can anyone help me please? Are you mysterious when we are born of the spirit? Are we unpredictable? I understand as far as being born of the Spirit means that we can’t be caged, we can’t be controlled by the world, and we are working on a heavenly structure and schedule. Any other explanations would be great please!


Being born again from above is a perennial, perpetual and eternal beginning; a freshness all the time in thinking and in talking and in living, the continual surprise of the life of God.

The Holy Spirit is like an ever bubbling brook that cannot be dried. When we’re born of the Spirit, our lives are fresh every morning, our joy is constantly renewed, our love is constantly being refreshed and the grace of God over our lives is “new every morning,” like Lamentations 3 says.

Staleness is an indication of something out of joint with God — “I must do this thing or it will never be done.” That is the first sign of staleness. Are we freshly born this minute, or are we stale, raking in our minds for something to do? Freshness does not come from obedience but from the Holy Spirit; obedience keeps us in the light as God is in the light.

Interesting… we do not love God any more when we obey Him, or because we obey Him. We obey Him because we love Him. There is a sequence here- first comes love for Him, then freshness follows, and our light bursts from our constantly refreshed relationship with Him.

We should love God today more than we did yesterday. We should have new testimonies to tell today and not rely on the experiences we had years ago. We should have fresh insight and fresh revelation. Even when those don’t come, our love should be renewed because there’s always something new and something exciting to learn from God.


Guard jealously your relationship to God. Jesus prayed “that they may be one, even as we are one” — nothing between. Keep all the life perennially open to Jesus Christ, don’t pretend with Him. Are you drawing your life from any other source than God Himself? If you are depending upon anything but Him, you will never know when He is gone.

We must only depend on Jesus or He leaves silently, like the wind! I often worry about being in a relationship or being married because of how personal and intimate my relationship with God is. I would cry in His presence, laugh like a crazy person, talk out loud, dance till my body hurts, and even do all sorts of crazy things that would be embarrassing to mention here. I wonder what another human would think if they saw me worshipping or in the presence of God. Would they run away? Would they laugh? Would they think I'm weird? Not like a human's verdict counts anyway.

More importantly, how would I allow another human into this very private and very intimate experience? How do I take them up with me to my mountain of transfiguration? I guess when it’s time, the Lord will give me the grace and the heart to trust someone else enough to let them in. And  we’ll find out when that human sees me in the place of worship. 

Being born of the Spirit means much more than we generally take it to mean. It gives us a new vision and keeps us absolutely fresh for everything by the perennial supply of the life of God.

This is beautiful. The Lord forever keeps us fresh. He keeps the righteous from stumbling. Don’t worry that you’ll love Him more today than you would two years from now. His supply is perennial. He will forever renew your relationship with Him and give you fresh reasons to praise Him. Amen?

Featured image from here.