There are words and there are words.
About 8 years ago, I read a novel that made me realize how much I love words. The novel is called Everything Good Will Come and is written by Nigerian novelist Sefi Atta. It is set in Lagos, Nigeria, and centers around a young woman. Honestly, I don’t remember much of the story, except the fact that I liked it and it was one of the first non-children's novels that I read. I also birthed in me the desire to write really well. I think we’re slowly making progress, aren’t we?
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
This morning I woke up in a slight panic. It wasn’t strong enough that I was too worried to go back to bed. But the panic was there, stiffening my legs, tying knots in my stomach, tightening my lungs, and lacing itself around my neck. I have barely three weeks left in school and about eighty to a hundred pages of writing to submit for all my classes combined. None of my professors this semester is an easy grader so I have to work as hard as I can to submit quality work.
Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.
He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,
And your justice as the noonday.
I ask myself how I got here. How I became this obsessed english and international relations major doing independent work and being consumed by raw love for my courses, yet completely crying at how difficult any writing is. This is why Everything Good Will Come marks a pivotal point. It was through that book that I realized that I had been in love with words- speaking them, reading them, writing them.
I live my life everyday surrounded by words. Words from the bible that bring me comfort in uncertainty. Words from my friends that calm my soul during turbulent times. Words that show love, that snuggle me softly in their comfort and hold me securely.
A little that a righteous man has
Is better than the riches of many wicked.
For the arms of the wicked shall be broken,
But the Lord upholds the righteous.
I love words, but sometimes, they fail me.
I sometimes have emotions that I am unable to articulate. I may know what the emotion is, when and how I feel it, but I cannot describe it with words. Conversely, words also can be so powerful that they penetrate the deepest recesses of my heart and bring healing and comfort that I never even knew I needed.
The Lord knows the days of the upright,
And their inheritance shall be forever.
They shall not be ashamed in the evil time,
And in the days of famine they shall be satisfied.
Time and again, the Lord has comforted me through words. He has revealed Himself to me through words. He has shown me my own future through words. And as much as I love words and writing, I recognize that the power of words lies in the spirit behind them.
The power of God’s words lies in His Spirit which lives and breaths in them. Don’t take them for granted. Read them, chew them, digest them. And your life will never be the same again.
Have a wonderful week ahead friends, please keep me in your prayers!
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